An android can dream …

Therapy can’t fix this, bit it can help OP with it. A good therapist will help you find more effective strategies to help you cope with a situation you can’t personally change.

XKCD #37

I’m sorry for your loss. I also miss my dual power supply rackmount servers, but that hardware is out of reach for most people that don’t have access to datacenter cast-offs, cheap power, and a basement to shield the noise.