

Aha, this worked for me. Thank you. I legitimately have a disproportionate amount of appreciation for you and the person a couple comments above you who also posted a diagram — although theirs didn’t help me, I am glad that I was able to find people who had attempted to make diagrams (else I would’ve felt compelled to try make one myself, because it’d drive me mad otherwise)
I was going to comment with a wry joke that shared in your frustration, but I felt very tired and sad as soon as I started typing.
Instead, I’ll just say “Solidarity”. I’m proud of you for trying to get better, even though the system is making that very hard. I’m proud of myself too, but I find it’s easier to feel proud of people similar to me than directly feeling proud of myself.